2nd Go

Apr. 30th, 2017 06:28 pm
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So We put in an offer on another house. I still feel like this is going really rapidly. There is part of me anxious to get it over with, but I also feel like I am rushing.

This house is a lot nicer than the last one. It is newly renovated. However we did notice a pluming leak. We put in the contract that it would need to be fixed. The house has 3 bedrooms and 1.5 baths. It is 5 minutes from my work. The neighborhood is nice, if working class. We are working class so I suppose it fits.

I am anxious we are getting in over our heads. I mean I have crunched the numbers and I think we will be fine. It is going to mean some belt tightening for sure.

In other news, I called the clinic that treats trans people. I could have swore they required one year RLE before they would give hormones, but now I can't find it. Hopefully I will have a gender therapist letter before long.

Speaking of which. I am not sure the guy I am interested in seeing is the therapist I am looking for. He has treated a large number of trans patients, but he doesn't really do evaluations. He may just sign the letter for me. Everything was so new I didn't have the balls to ask about timelines or anything.

I was really looking for someone who could do the eval and see them basically long enough to get on HRT. I felt bad about saying that. I have a therapist that I have worked with for years, and I am happy working with her. She just doesn't feel comfortable signing my letter.

I shaved the girl fuzz of my face again today. It is a decent activity to help me re-center when I am feeling dysphoric. It makes me feel a bit stupid after, but it's kinda all I got right now.
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I am so excited. The last house we looked at yesterday was pretty much perfect for us. It is listed as a 2/1, but has a small bonus room with a closet that could be W's room.

The only major issues are that the place currently has a tenet. He is on Month to month, but I still feel bad kicking someone out to buy the place.

The other problem is that central AC doesn't work, But honestly I think we can live with that.
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Wow. It is nice to know there is a more open place to put my old journal. It really does mean a lot to me. I also need a new outlet. This looks promising. I wish I could import my Wordpress blog. Might have to do that by hand. It would be nice to have it all in one place.

I am at a place where I am looking to start Testosterone. I have called the gender therapist in my area. I hope I have enough history to make it a quick thing. I mean I wish my current therapist I have been seeing for 10 years felt comfortable with writing the letter. She knows more about me than almost anyone. She just isn't a gender specialist, and feels like she can't make the evaluation.

I called the local informed consent clinic. They have been without a coordinator for months, but didn't bother putting that on the website. There is another that only requires RLE, but it is hard to have RLE when you are 5'2 and look and sound so much like a girl. I've told my partner and a lot of my friends. I plan on coming out to my parents after I get on hormones. I am not sure I will ever tell my coworkers. They can figure it out for themselves, or they can say something, but I don't see a need to bring it up.

I am sorta holding on to the hope that I can have a genetic child. But I think I have to start hormones first. I am scared to at 35, but we don't have the IVF money yet, and the docs say it is the only way. I might come off of T to gestate if my partner gets a job that pays for IVF. But that is all in the future, and right now I am so dysphoric.

I hope anyone that happens to read my journal enjoys it. I am not very good at ending post. So um... there.


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