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transpaocoping with everything has become so difficult lately.
There are so many people who don't understand how it feels to loose a cherished pet. He was my baby, my buddy, someone who was always there for me when no one else was.
It's so hard. I want to believe there is more. That somewhere I will see him again, but to tell you the truth Rigor mortis has shaken my faith in an afterlife. there is something so terribly final about holding a dead loved one. I can definitely see why people cling to the idea of heaven, or the summer land or whatever...
Having to deal with all the troubles between I and Stephen right now is making things so much more difficult. I never take breakups well so to loose my dearest companion and my lover at the same time its so much.
This week I was diagnosed with osteo-arthritis. I'm having sever pain in my hands/knuckles and knees. The Celebrex isn't really helping much, but maybe as things go on it will. This comes at such an awful point in my life. All I really feel I have right now is my job, and the intense pain I go through just trying to do it is such a trial.
Things I am grateful for to put my mind on a better track:
Jack O'Lantern my cat
Terry Pratchett and his wonderful books
My dad and Rona's help this morning with my house.
Deceased pet care's very understand service.
My job.
My friends and family.
Harvest Moon video games
The Xpress bus
There are so many people who don't understand how it feels to loose a cherished pet. He was my baby, my buddy, someone who was always there for me when no one else was.
It's so hard. I want to believe there is more. That somewhere I will see him again, but to tell you the truth Rigor mortis has shaken my faith in an afterlife. there is something so terribly final about holding a dead loved one. I can definitely see why people cling to the idea of heaven, or the summer land or whatever...
Having to deal with all the troubles between I and Stephen right now is making things so much more difficult. I never take breakups well so to loose my dearest companion and my lover at the same time its so much.
This week I was diagnosed with osteo-arthritis. I'm having sever pain in my hands/knuckles and knees. The Celebrex isn't really helping much, but maybe as things go on it will. This comes at such an awful point in my life. All I really feel I have right now is my job, and the intense pain I go through just trying to do it is such a trial.
Things I am grateful for to put my mind on a better track:
Jack O'Lantern my cat
Terry Pratchett and his wonderful books
My dad and Rona's help this morning with my house.
Deceased pet care's very understand service.
My job.
My friends and family.
Harvest Moon video games
The Xpress bus
