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My thoughts drift around today. I am feeling very much like the song "Even Angels Fall" by the Cruxshadows. I don't really have much of a reason to feel like this but it's sort of the strange mood I've been in since I woke up this morning. I've been thinking of lost loves and reminising over those forgotten memmories... I suppose it's because my life seems to be changing so fast now, and mostly it's possitive change, but I guess I'm just pausing to remember...

I'm at a point in my life where I suppose I'm being tested on how well I let the past go in the face of the future. God it's hard for me. I tend to cling so hard to the past that grabbing hold of today or tomorrow doesn't feel right.

I mean can you really commit to somone new when part of you is still in love with a year ago? What if you know A year ago is never coming back? What if this is even better then what you had and you really want it but part of you just can't seem to let go? *le sigh*

oh well... I needed to write a bit... I know it's been forever... I'll catch everyone up soon.