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Jul. 25th, 2004 02:13 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
transpaoYou said you were sorry you hurt me. *laughs* sure. I just wanted to let you know that tonight hurt worse then everything else combined. I'm not angry. I know you want me to be because it'll make you feel better. But I'm not. I'm hurt. I mean the LEAST you could ahve done was when you called me this afternoon warn me that you planned on showing up with another girl. Yes I know I'm beautiful... I never doubted that. The thing is I know I could have had several of the guys there tonight... The problem however is that the only one I wanted showed up with another girl and then expected me to be happy and watch as she hung on him and danced so close I couldn't tell who's parts were whos. Salt in a fresh wound doesn't hurt this much.
You keep talking about leaving because that will make things better for me. Well for the millionth time... IT WONT MAKE ANY DIFFERENCE. I care about you and trust me when your not in my vision your in my head. It may not be the same for you... perhaps out of site is out of mind for you, but I want you to know that it isn't the same for me. NO I don't want you to leave. I want you to care that you hurt me. I want you to not hurt me anymore. I want you to be in my arms and when your not it hurts. So don't bother telling me how wonderful I am. Don't bother telling me how beautiful I am. Because even though that may be true it wont git me the one thing I want so it doesn't matter.
*note to everyone else* I'm leaving comments allowed on this but I really don't want a bunch of *hugs* and I'm sorry hunny posts. The reason I'm leaving comments open is that should he care to respond... my journal got all messy last time and it bothered me.
You keep talking about leaving because that will make things better for me. Well for the millionth time... IT WONT MAKE ANY DIFFERENCE. I care about you and trust me when your not in my vision your in my head. It may not be the same for you... perhaps out of site is out of mind for you, but I want you to know that it isn't the same for me. NO I don't want you to leave. I want you to care that you hurt me. I want you to not hurt me anymore. I want you to be in my arms and when your not it hurts. So don't bother telling me how wonderful I am. Don't bother telling me how beautiful I am. Because even though that may be true it wont git me the one thing I want so it doesn't matter.
*note to everyone else* I'm leaving comments allowed on this but I really don't want a bunch of *hugs* and I'm sorry hunny posts. The reason I'm leaving comments open is that should he care to respond... my journal got all messy last time and it bothered me.
