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[transpao]

It's late. I'm not alseep. I should be, but I'm not. My thoughts are to pressent to let me rest. I know there are most likely hormonal reasons I'm the way I am right now, but that doesn't help very much. In fact, it makes me feel even crazier.

I'm cleaning a bit. I've done some laundry and the dishes whish is always good. I hope I can keep up my drive until I simply pass out. Being productive when depressed makes the latter depression lighter... or well something like that.

I saw Alls Well That Ends Well at the Shakespeare Tavern last night. It was very good. The food was also nice. Nutmeg went with me which was ever so nice of her. I hope she had a good time. I have to write my report on it soon but that should go easily.

I am working with the production of Shannondoa that is being put on here at KSU. I'm running the # 2 spotlight. It's amazing how difficult those damn things are to run. Although I've heard tale that they are not real spotlights and that is why it is difficult to use them as such, but anywho... I'm getting better. Tomorrow is a 'preview' which means it's a rehersal with an audiance. and Tuesday night is actually opening night. There were quite a few problems today that I hope get worked out before tomorrows show, and I'm sure they will that's the magic of theater.

I miss being on stange. Working tech is good, I think it's best to be well rounded. I think it's good to know the story from both sides. BUT I miss being on stage. man the adrinaline rush that hits me when I walk out and then the even bigger burst when the applause go up!

I feel very hallow right now. I feel like I'm about to start crying or like I should be depressed but there is just this nothing inside. *sigh* I dunno what's going on with me...

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[eternaldreams.livejournal.com]

hey doll... how ya doing? i miss talkin' to ya. how is school and all of those random things?

take care of yourself my beautiful pao.