not a great day

[transpao]

Planet comp was today. It sucked major ass.

I wish I could stop blaming myself. I know its not totally my fault. I know things were set up against me from the start. I know this stuff in my head, but feeling it is a different story.

Right now I feel like an idiot, a fool, and totally worthless in my trade.

Yay!

Comments

[moonfire-77.livejournal.com]

Stop blaming urself Pao. You are one of the most smartest women I have ever known so stop being so negative. We had no idea on what to expect and that noone told us about the lack of flowers/leaves or anything of that sort. Grant it, I am kicking myself in the ass about spacing out on some plants but Today was a learning experiance, and hey... we got to see an absolutely beautiful man use some very POWERFUL tools and get WET!!!! yummy!!!

[paosparti.livejournal.com]

you are very right. I finally got my head to stop repeating the worst parts of the day and took a nap. I'm feeling a lot better now.

There is one pant though that I remembered just before I made this post and it made me feel like a real twit. Good advice to stop being so negative.

And he was pretty yummy wasn't he!