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[transpao]

So it just dawned on me that maybe it's a good thing I don't have any friends in the scene anymore. It's painful and I hate never having anyone to go clubbing with, but there are people I've removed from my life that I would inevitably run into. These people are not in my life for a reason, and even hearing about the stupid shit that goes on in their lives bothers me. I know I shouldn't let it and I try really hard but... yeah.

I suppose that's why I keep trying to talk myself into moving out of Atlanta. The thing is that I know I wont go out by myself because I've had such horrible experiences in the past. So the probability that I would move to some new city and then be lonely and miserable is very high, because how do you meet people if you don't go out? Yeah there is the internet, but all to often I've found that people I get along with really well online are people that I turn out to not like so much IRL.

ah well I shouldn't rant. or have a pity party... it was just a thought...

Hey at least I got through Valentine's Day with only being reminded 3 times. And I haven't felt sad about it yet, and it's over. :D

Comments

[evil-anna.livejournal.com]

I know you are telling us that it is a good thing that you are not going out but if I ever go out again you could come with me. I'm really good about making sure my friends don't get into unsafe situations and you can drink but I would appreciate being around someone who didn't buy me drinks or encourage me to get drunk. I'm thinking about a night of dressing nice and dancing, and avoiding nutty and drunk people!

[catherineschild.livejournal.com]

Personally, I think scenes are the equilavent of a double pepperoni pizza, delicious, but very bad for you, which is why I don't go out either. :) Instead, maybe you should go to places that you find enjoyable, regardless if someone is with you or not. You shouldn't talk yourself out of moving to Atlanta.

Life and stuff

[(Anonymous)]

I don't go out that much myself. At least not to clubs etc. Being married and older are the main reasons, but I honestly don't like being around large groups of people now. I find the herd/mob mind doesn't fit with what I want to do when I want to do it.
Moving to another locale can be good and bad. If you go somewhere without knowing anyone else it will suck big time. I lived in San Frisco once without knowing anyone. I can honestly say it was the worst time in my life.
I agree that internet friends often don't have the same vibe in real life. thats why their internet friends. Try checking out groups that do things you like etc. I meet alot of my good friends feeding the homless or doing outdoor stuff.
Cheers
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