Understanding

[transpao]

"I hate you when, you ask me why
I miss you when, I don't feel inside
I love you when, you undrstand me
It kills me when I understand me
I fear you when I fear myself
I wish believing more then I believe"
Terribly When - The Last dance

I am sucpicious of the world.
I am scared of all the ghost that stand behind you
I'd love not to compair
I'd love to believe
I'd love to trust, to be naive

Fear consumes me and tears fall
Do you think they didn't say the same things?
Do you think they told me they would lie?
Do you think I would be afraid to know?
To understand the reasons behind...
all the falacies... all the dishonesty...
I'm sorry it affcts you...

Do you think I enjoy the disapointment?
Do you think I like to be in pain?
Do you question my motives?
Do you think I question yours?

Would it be better if I didn't bother?
Are you afraid of my anger?
Would you fight with me?
Would you lay next to me and love me, despite yourself?

The times I trusted... I shouldn't have
The times I lusted... I shouldn't have
The times I cried... I shouldn't have
The times I loved... Please don't tell me I shouldn't have

I want your understanding... not compliance and sympathy
I know I'm broken and hard to comprhend
My logic is a labyrinth,
I'd fix it if I could
I'd take away all the strings
I'd never doubt or worry
I'd never jump to conclusions
I'd never cry or anger...

I dunno how to finish the last bit...