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transpaoSo it has been a long time since my last update. I hate it, but things have just been flying by.
I can't believe it has been over 5 months since I left Atlanta. The days turn into months before I know it, but the minutes seem to last forever.
AmeriCorps has been... An expriance... Mostly an exersize in frustration and alienation, but I do think I have learned a lot. Sadly most of my skillz have gone totally unused. The team doesn't seem to need someone that knows anything about plants, they simply need bodies to life and move and hack. This can be chocked up to misunderstanding I guess. I have found that my body cannot be pushed to keep up with the physical exertion, no matter what my ego and brain want. I will simply have to learn to accept.
On a more positive note, aside from AmeriCorps, I am really enjoying the people I am meeting. My roommate Cody is an awesome guy, and I will miss living with him. I hope we can keep in touch. Will is also a great guy, and I am super glad to know him. And thn there is Li.
Li is amazing. I adore him. I think thing have happened scarey fast, and I worry about a flame out. But so far I have never met someone more exactly what I want in a partner. The distance and other frustrations are difficult to deal with. I feel like I am constantly missing him. I wish I could learn better how to deal with this emotion, because I know ptessuring him to move in with me is likely a bad idea. I know I should keep busy, and be a little less available, but this seems an impossible task.
There is so much more I want to write, but we are almost to the park I will be working at for the day.
I can't believe it has been over 5 months since I left Atlanta. The days turn into months before I know it, but the minutes seem to last forever.
AmeriCorps has been... An expriance... Mostly an exersize in frustration and alienation, but I do think I have learned a lot. Sadly most of my skillz have gone totally unused. The team doesn't seem to need someone that knows anything about plants, they simply need bodies to life and move and hack. This can be chocked up to misunderstanding I guess. I have found that my body cannot be pushed to keep up with the physical exertion, no matter what my ego and brain want. I will simply have to learn to accept.
On a more positive note, aside from AmeriCorps, I am really enjoying the people I am meeting. My roommate Cody is an awesome guy, and I will miss living with him. I hope we can keep in touch. Will is also a great guy, and I am super glad to know him. And thn there is Li.
Li is amazing. I adore him. I think thing have happened scarey fast, and I worry about a flame out. But so far I have never met someone more exactly what I want in a partner. The distance and other frustrations are difficult to deal with. I feel like I am constantly missing him. I wish I could learn better how to deal with this emotion, because I know ptessuring him to move in with me is likely a bad idea. I know I should keep busy, and be a little less available, but this seems an impossible task.
There is so much more I want to write, but we are almost to the park I will be working at for the day.
