Manic can be good
Oct. 27th, 2002 09:44 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
transpaoOkay for some reason I’ve gotten on the big clutter kick right now. I think it’s because my room is a disaster and I know something has to change. I dunno I’ve been so depressed lately, and I know cleaning my room isn’t going to solve it but it damn sure doesn’t help. I wake up and I look at it and it makes me want to fucking groan. I’m ashamed of people to see it. Hell I can’t walk around in it for tripping over something.
Ya know when you just reach that point when you’re sick and tired of being sick and tired. I’m totally there. I want more, wait I want less. I want less responsablity. I want less sadness. I want less mess. I want less junk. I want less being tide down. I want out. I want to run. I want to dance. I want to scream. I want to cry. I want it all and I want to give it back. I want to do all (okay most) of the things I’ve wanted to but have always been to dame afraid to do.
I want to be productive. I’ve decided that one part of getting rid of all the crap is making sure I don’t accumulate more. I’m going to either go buy some, or find my sewing machine and make some grocery bags. I feel so guilty at throwing the plastic ones away but I just have two damn many sitting around my house I can’t take it any more. One thing I already did was I went to a site called www.lunapads.com It’s awesome! I urge all da girls to go to it. I suggest the combo sea sponge and lunapad pack. They are wonderful and there are so many reasons why they are better. Another thing is that I don’t care whether we have a recycle bin here at the dorms I want to recycle dammit so I’m going too. I thought of composting but the problem is that I don’t really have anything to put the compost on and no where to really put the bin I’d compost in so I guess that’s out. I’m trying to think of other ways to reduce the clutter but the only other thing I’ve come up with so far is to turn my trash into art, which I have done this successfully once already with a really cool collage of The Last Dance.
Hell it’s probably all just a manic upswing right, I’m turning it into something useful. =)
*muah*
Pao
Ya know when you just reach that point when you’re sick and tired of being sick and tired. I’m totally there. I want more, wait I want less. I want less responsablity. I want less sadness. I want less mess. I want less junk. I want less being tide down. I want out. I want to run. I want to dance. I want to scream. I want to cry. I want it all and I want to give it back. I want to do all (okay most) of the things I’ve wanted to but have always been to dame afraid to do.
I want to be productive. I’ve decided that one part of getting rid of all the crap is making sure I don’t accumulate more. I’m going to either go buy some, or find my sewing machine and make some grocery bags. I feel so guilty at throwing the plastic ones away but I just have two damn many sitting around my house I can’t take it any more. One thing I already did was I went to a site called www.lunapads.com It’s awesome! I urge all da girls to go to it. I suggest the combo sea sponge and lunapad pack. They are wonderful and there are so many reasons why they are better. Another thing is that I don’t care whether we have a recycle bin here at the dorms I want to recycle dammit so I’m going too. I thought of composting but the problem is that I don’t really have anything to put the compost on and no where to really put the bin I’d compost in so I guess that’s out. I’m trying to think of other ways to reduce the clutter but the only other thing I’ve come up with so far is to turn my trash into art, which I have done this successfully once already with a really cool collage of The Last Dance.
Hell it’s probably all just a manic upswing right, I’m turning it into something useful. =)
*muah*
Pao
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Date: 2002-10-28 09:53 am (UTC)