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My thoughts drift around today. I am feeling very much like the song "Even Angels Fall" by the Cruxshadows. I don't really have much of a reason to feel like this but it's sort of the strange mood I've been in since I woke up this morning. I've been thinking of lost loves and reminising over those forgotten memmories... I suppose it's because my life seems to be changing so fast now, and mostly it's possitive change, but I guess I'm just pausing to remember...

I'm at a point in my life where I suppose I'm being tested on how well I let the past go in the face of the future. God it's hard for me. I tend to cling so hard to the past that grabbing hold of today or tomorrow doesn't feel right.

I mean can you really commit to somone new when part of you is still in love with a year ago? What if you know A year ago is never coming back? What if this is even better then what you had and you really want it but part of you just can't seem to let go? *le sigh*

oh well... I needed to write a bit... I know it's been forever... I'll catch everyone up soon.

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[eternaldreams.livejournal.com]

hey sweetie! i was just thinking about you the other day. i can relate to what you are saying, im at a point where i am trying to let go of 5 years and i know that now is something new and better and all of that, but its hard sometimes. esp when ive hung on so tightly to 5 years that ... my hands feel empty because if i don't hang onto it, what do i have? then i remmeber that this new guy is filling every hole and part of me as much as i will let him and i know that 5 years will be a wonderful memory, but will loose its hold on me and ill be free.

i can't wait to find out what is happening in your life these days.. im alwasy online @ work if you wanna IM me.

take care you

stina